My life feels like it is spiralling out of my control and all due to my little man's father! I feel as though I'm drowning in my own life and not sure there is a way out if it at all. I don't know what to do as I don't have the money to constantly talk to my lawyers, even though I know my brother or parents would assist, I can't rely on them for the rest of my life.
I'm so sick of the constant changes and belittling I receive from him and how he feels it is in his right to send through his wife's opinion of me as well! Mind you we have never even been introduced let alone had a conversation but she feels it is in her right to comment as well. I find this amazing as when I was with him I never commented on his issues with his ex wife, if anything I'd say " take a look from her point of view." His concerns with their kids were theirs and not my place to put my two cents worth.
I was going to write this the other day but thought it would be too hard so here I am sitting on the couch tapping away on, the iPad.
How do you deal with a person who believes they are more important than the child concerned? He constantly places his other children above and beyond his commitment to the little man. That commitment is Wednesday 4.30 to Thursday 8.30am and Friday 5.00 to Saturday 3.30pm; not major at all in my view. I find it hard to believe that we spent money in court nearly two years ago and he can't stick with the orders for an entire month! It does my head in!!!
The only thing that makes me continue smiling when I don't really feel like it is that the little man is such a delight and doesn't really understand what is going on. If he misses out seeing his dad he doesn't even blink an eye or ask after him or why he isn't there. God love a beautiful adjusted child.
I've been out in the sun the last couple of days to try and warm my soul towards the cards I have been dealt and will have to live with for the rest of my life. Fingers crossed the little man realises how special he is to his mum.
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